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7:27 PM
Life's hasn't been good.Its almost 2 weeks since the new term&i can't seem to get rid of my old habit.Still coming to class late&absent myself w/o valid reason. Baby found a temporary job and it jst seems that im spending lesser time with him. Our relationship tis week hasn't been smooth.I have to settle myself down and not being self-centered all the time. I need to adapt to he's werking hr now,if not then i'll be having a hard time to cope with he's shift werking hour.Ive been scolded many wif baby&it jst seems so sad.Idk why i jst cant seem to express my sadness.You have to understand this when you're not around. I got no friends to go out with.Most of my time was devoted to you. The thinking of staying at home not gg out is jst so sick. Another part of it,i found 2 new classmates who stays at Gombak. Still i know you'll wldnt trust me if i were to hang out with them.Its such a big issue that i rather stay at home than eating myself up.Its saturday. No one except my sleepy brother is at home.I got no siblings to talk to. I got no friends to go out with. Eversince then my laptop's been a good very friend to me.Talking abt my 2 new friends. Let's jst talk abt 1 of them. I cant imagine a 1989 girl is currently supporting a 2yr old child. Shotgun.No wonder her outlook seems kinda wild but deep inside when you got to know her. She's very pleasant to talk to. Bit by bit i start to uncover all the mystery. I am concern enough for all my friends but i cant do anything to help them when their bf's start calling me and asking secrets abt them. Who am i suppose to side?I cldnt memorize any scripts anymore. When they hung up they told me this not to tell their gf's abt it. I dun want any conflicts with my gf's neither did i wanna be a hipocrit or a backstabber. When i told my gf's the truth the were shock.Sumtimes its jst a good thing not to own any hp.Baby's away since morning.I jst keep thiking how is it gonna be when you found a stable job.Honestly i haven't prepared myself to face this.I wldnt get to spend time with you like we used to for the past 1 year everagain.I'll be spending most of time alone.It is kinda hurting wheneve you say that you pampered me too much till i behave in this way. Ive been wondering am i bein self-centered for our own good.You keep repeating that you wont be pampering me that much in every argument. Its hurts but my expression seems careless.Its even hurting when you start to dig up abt the past and my weak points to shut me off.Pls pls pls god lemme go through this hardship smoothly.Amin.
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♥Lynn♥
Ive made mistakes in my life
Ive let people take advantage of me
And i accepted way less than i deserve
But,ive learned from my bad choices &
Eventhough there are some things i can never
get back and people who will never be sorry,
I'll know better next time and
I wont settle for anything less than i deserve
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